Not Myself

By Stasia Mihaly

I am crying on the inside
Can’t stop it on the outside
I want relief from this black hole

I feel like my insides are screaming
I know they are bleeding
My eyes are swollen
Welled up with tears

I can’t even finish a sentence
I don’t feel like going out anymore
I want to stop crying
I want everything in the world to just stop
I want to stop crying
I want to stop crying

I want to be myself
I need to feel myself
Nothing feels real
Everything is a washed out dream

Twisted, turned upside down, spastic
My world is spinning into disaster
My world is stuck in the black hole